I WANT MY LIFE BACK! But how do I go back? And yes we ALL know the famous saying: “You can never go back”! But there are parts that I want to go back to….where I left off at….that I want to continue on with! Good parts that made me smile and think and long for more….So let me rephrase my insane request: How do I move ahead to where I would like ME to be?
I cannot take much more of this car accident issue with whiplash injuries! I do not want more doctors touching me! I do not like lawyers (no offense to anyone)….I do not like being in pain and people telling me to get over it when I cannot stop the pain to make THEM happy! I wish there would have been someone here to guide me thru it all! To say I love you thru the pain and held me when it was so hard both physically and mentally! Dear Lord I think the emotional pain was at time worse than the physical pain!
Now I just want to find a way to be me again….whatever me will be now! From all of this I know I could not help but have changed….I just hope that the good changes out weigh the bad changes that have come!
What I would want most is to go back to work (how I do not know)….I want to hold my grand daughter and chase her without being in pain. I want my silly, loving boyfriend to be able to hold me and never have to think again…lets figure this out my options: pain vs making love to him? The second should always win!
God you have begun to give me my inside/mental strength back now please be kind enough to give me back my physical strength too! I miss my “eye of the tiger”! I was not made to exist in life-I was made to live my life! God you have given my life some uniue and intresting people to learn about, to share with and to love….now please give me the will to be a part of them again too! I have had people tell me that I am unique and special-that was very kind of them to say! I do not like fighting, nonsense or any of that…I believe we all need each other and that working together we can exceed any boundaries given to us! We are not made to be alone but we do at times choose to be alone! But in my case it was one kiss that made me want to come back to life-that made me want to trust again and believe in others again! What a kiss! And what a life I lost-parts were very good and a few parts did need to be corrected but now maybe it is time to show who I am yet again. A new but slightly dented version of me….in LIFE, LIBERTY AND THE PURSUIT OF REDHEADED HAPPINESS!!